This song came during a period of transition where I found myself grappling with conflicting emotions—caught between moving forward and clinging to the past. It felt like taking the final step out the door, only to be pulled back by a flood of memories, each one a reason to stay.
What do you do when there is legitimate beauty and legitimate pain and you need to make a decision?
I really, truly, actually, have no idea.
Once again, this song holds no answers for anything at all, it simply settles into the feelings present. That's pretty hard for me as a person who loves closure, finality, and happy endings. But I was in the midst of this transition, and I truly had no closure or happy ending on the horizon, and it felt very important to me to allow myself to be right where I was, which was:
I am torn.
There's a lot on the line.
I'm paralyzed by the fear of making the wrong choice.
(for more thoughts on finding peace in the midst of uncertainty, check out this journal post)
Lyrics
A note on lyrics: my frequent use of the word "but" was intentional, because my mind was mostly full of "buts" when I wrote it.
I hope that as you listen to this song, you are able to embrace all your "I don't knows" and have peace and joy anyway.
Feel it all and take your time.
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Journal Prompts:
Where is there tension in my life- something pulling me in two different directions?
How can I create a more peaceful mind, starting today?
xoxo
Anna